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A cozy little job for this rainy day(s). Since Leah’s arrival we’ve been making pictures that are now printed, cut out (see pic) and ready to be glued in her scrapbook. A scrapbook that we started 2.5 years ago.

My cherry on the holidays.. Leah Bright eyed girl… So incredibly self aware. Hahaha I had made a basket with presents. Each day she could unwrap one… Alas all is unwrapped. She found the basket 5 minutes in the house Happy cozy, hart ophalende, dagen

These two are more than 50 years together. Something I can dream of achieving myself . My lovely parents, so happy to see them after some weeks.

Our visit to Greece has almost come to an end… She has been so sweet. -A pearl, a coming ‘back’ home kinda feeling. “Eska Riesto poli” mama Greece and your children of love. Some pictures of the passed days to share with you. Today we are renting a little car to...

Taking a guitar on the plane would mean to buy a seat for the guitar. So we left it at home. Luckily it didn’t take long to find one With the crickets on the background as The Wild Romance to the tunes and melodies played. Mmmmmmm…. So much love and happiness...

With a vibrant softness, beauty and tranquility… much love from me I’ve just emerged from a beautiful retreat from which will be more to come. Unfolding in me a sacred connection to earth in my daily life. Grateful 🩷 Vanya Ishtar

Mommy and me 1975/76 🪭#mothersdayweek

🩷🩷 I’m counting the days, celebrating and having a party with preparing for this retreat I’m going to in France-Cathar Land . (Almost color arranging my clothes and travel bag already hihihi) An all women retreat! Soooooo looking forward to spending time with sisters...

Today I became a Ukelele mummy My teacher took the picture

After an emotional week of motherly duty and business you probably can’t see I’m excited by the looks of it… but I am very much looking forward to be with my Leah the coming two weeks! In just two hours I will be holding here in my arms

Happy high vibes from the hot springs at the feet of the Mountain Canigo Vanya Ishtar Akhil DevaEli Saz

Hola desde España donde el sol y el mar me abrazan con amor. I hope you can feel my love ¡Feliz año nuevo!

Go nuts this season Have the fun , be madly in love, enjoy the moment and be creative in difficult times. Laughter is medicine. Much, much love from France

“I need you two to come with me for 2 minutes “. She said. Uhhh us? Ok I replied. (Making me feel all giddy giddy.) That you would take our pictures didn’t come to mind and truly surprised me. Thank you Marijke Kodden so much for the gift of a memory Oulala..The belly...

Love love love Spending the day doggy-sitting and gardening with my Melati in Zeist. Listening to Rock Werchter on the telly.

Happy people happy tribe in gratitude #venwoude #venwoudetribe One of my workplaces that I feel so blessed with...

Groetjes uit Utrecht

After 5 days of retreat. Resting on a little bench somewhere on Venwoude enjoying the cleansing rain… Having that submerged feeling of an ocean moving inside of me. Energized , full and deeply grateful I slowly and calmly come back on land With love and...

We’ve ended a 3 moon cycle of Kambo with beloved Neferu and the after glow is a bit puffy this time.. the ceremony was just too intense to sit up straight. Hence the puffiness. But feeling great with my froggy love face and crazy laughter! I love how clean I feel

Thistle to the rescue 🧙🏻‍♀️ To my surprise we have Thistle growing at the front of the house. I mean, from the big one you see to at least 15 (!) spread along the fence. She heard me! You see, I love doggies, I hate it when their owners let them pee against the...

Dancing with all my ancestors watching Feeling overwhelmed and pushed to my limits these days. Must be the yacki eclipse my beloved witch is talking about. Follow her on FaceBook for more deep "planetary" readings. You will not be disappointed! Sauvage Astrology 

For the love and my fascination of street art. Here some art from the city Anger the other day. Here a link to a documentary with Banksy and other street artists that I recently discovered for the second time 😉 https://youtu.be/evbHCAn4jto

Holding him holding me Love from a strong vibrant vein of Earth. ~La Belle Loire Ishtar

Holding me holding him Special moments with the river Loire. Sending love from a strong vibrant vein of the earth.

Tucking Battosai in a cozy (perfect color) woolen blanket on a rainy day is my kind of happiness. Rest my beloved shadow chaser, you can stay here for a while.

And then there are two waiting for nibbles … They used to fight each other. Now they don’t; Battosai and Enishi. Am I turning into that (already crazy) cat lady? My brave shadow fighters.. thank you for your protection. I feel blessed (and a bit used ).

“Hail to the King” -it says in David Wolfe’s book on Chaga. He calls Chaga the King of the Medicinal Mushrooms… Reading about this Mushroom just wants me to chew directly on a piece I’ve gotten not so long ago from a friend. And it’s a Dutch piece of Chaga! -Start...

Walking the streets and then there was this huge mirror… a picture moment with many thoughts on the insignificance of a being on earth. Call me romantic

I’ve been officially congratulated by my team of therapists for I no longer suffer from PTSS… hihi I have so many opinions but anyway, a nice moment of recognition from their diagnosis to healing. It sure helped me!!!!! Please hear me sharing from a higher overview of...

The nursery this morning This year mostly medicinal flowers and herbs . Hello my babies #vreekenzaden

I’m in control. From being conditioned to stay in a situation no matter what. -the believe is that when I walk away I’m weak and a coward. Which have put me in dangerous situations in the past. To a situation where I felt unsafe and not valued and just walked away....

Our daily guest patiently waiting for some nibbles.. We call him Battosai after a manga movie character because he’s a red head. He is polite and well mannered hihihi…

Once in a while I go onto the attic (at my parents) to go through my belongings that are stored there for more than 3 years now. There is no need or rush to get rid of anything. Organically letting things go feels more grounded to me then the way I’ve dealt with...

The panic when my mala would break was from another life I can say now. I was actually content with it breaking this time! Gathered all these jummy sparkling beads as the original wooden beads get lost. I’m replacing them one by one and with new and old intentions....

As the world seems to be mad as ever my (trans)personal work continues… Bear with me… Who am I to deny the desires of my demons? (Thank you Nawa Txana) I’ve just started to move with this question and will do so especially with the days to come. Remember I shared here...

Early morning creativity… beads, bones and stones from friends and family. Holding us in a beautiful bond of love and warmth.

Rendez-vous-tjes celebration with Cosmic Familia … they laughed, danced and sang their songs into the little hours of the day Sending after party cheerful vibes. Mais bien voila… l’affaire

Wish us a bonne route. It has been over two months since we left our cabin in the forest to go to France… we had the most intense time, moments.. ceremonie of our life. A newness is opening as bubbles in my womb. A big shift of my being after a deep looooong purge....

Happy that I was able to harvest enough pine needles (Pinus Sylvestris) to make a first distillation! NB No harm done to the tree. I could collect from what the recent storm had blown down to the ground. So tomorrow I will be traveling back to France with 10 liter of...

With mommy’s old “spitzen”. Owhhhh my heart. I remember buying these with my mother in Amsterdam at ~Le Papillon~. I must have been 15 years. According to my ballet teacher -Mizzi I was finally ready to begin practice. Blood, sweat and tears. I loved it so...

Coucou!! As if we have felt each other all along… we do. Having been separated for a year doesn’t effect our connection. Her Dutch has Now we speak English with moments of Dutch mixed with Swedish. But again, the language of the heart is the most clear. After spending...

My dear heart is beating a little faster at the idea of seeing and spending time with my daughter next week. I’m starting to move with the feeling that I’m actually able to go! It has been an intense job getting tickets and what not organized. Now I can slowly start...

Being held and given space simultaneously is what love feels to me...

Feeling a bit more courageous.. Last year I followed a couple of workshops with Matt Licata which have been helping and supporting me going through many of my unseen, unhealed etc trauma. During one of our sessions this beautiful, for me hopeful quote was shared: (I...

I call it “quarantine red” Slowly I start to feel that the virus is moving through, out of my body… Nowhere to be but here. All is fine Coughing like a zeehond though that too shall pass

Fortune Funny to say and maybe shocking to others but hear me out when I say I feel lucky to have been creating them COVID-19 anti bodies ‘old skool’ -style. A recovered certificate of proof will be my pass. It means that I will be able to travel without having to pay...

I want a stable emotional landscape. I want to recover from my PTSS diagnose. I want the clinic I’m going to in February to help me deal with my fears and anxiety to be a success and have space for all that I can be and see for myself. I want to keep on striving for...

Mmmm French baguette Yes I’ve arrived since a week and will be traveling through France again till February and then off to Finland to be with my daughter Leah for her 7th birthday!! I’m looking forward sharing my thoughts and pleasures, to bring you heart felt,...

17/11 The lingering echoes of celebration and well-wishing has almost faded away into my dreamworld. I feel much gratitude for everyone reaching out to me on my solar journey this time round. Hihi… pardon my kaleidoscopic mind. Thank you A sweet day it was ... Felt...

we play our music and sing our song ❤ #solarflare

I’ve been going through quite the journey since the unexpected encounter with the Teacher lady almost a week ago. Yesterday another lesson from her. This time I was prepared... I said ‘stop’ and shared her what I need for me. I needed space to digest and find my...

I wish I could just say "no" when a border is crossed, be with myself and move on without entering into a discussion about how the other is "wrong" or going into the other's behaviour. Well, in this case the person came walking towards me finger pointing at me and...

“Contact” The sweet joy of sensing and or feeling the aliveness, warmth of another being. This for me is a precious transcending moment where we potentially can witness what it is that wants to come through into matter. Co-creation? This picture was taken for my...